conducted an orchestra of my own desire
and ignominy I deposed
my shame w/ my sentiment
in my cotton brutalist blouses
I spun nonsense little saraspondas
upon the cherry bedframe or in
televised forests ringing metal
ornamentation pileated w/ memory
I asked my dad kindly
to sew on three plastic daisies
my polyester skirt of gross sinews
those ruffles thrilled me
did I hate or did I misuse
their pleasure in my panted years
I love expectation beauty subsumed
w/ meaning I mistook for want
lorn and muscled on my cherry table
w/ nine kinds of bread
I could be so lovely I could be so regular
and fake w/ watery hosannas
my onliest wants fear me while
I hold my glads the moment coroneted
in editioned fact another day
another issue sentences of
inverse proportion watching the owl
w/ a broken spine flap herself by the bushes
made me guess at my death
my duty to you and you